Relative Humidity

Recreating a garden space, recreating me.....

I had begun a redesign of my herb garden a couple months before I was laid off just recently from my job of 10 years. Standing on my porch a couple days after the shock of loosing a job, frozen in thought trying to process what had just happened, I looked out into my herb garden and noticed the unfinished stone border I had started a few weeks before. It remindied me of the project I had started for my ex employer that was unfinished. The garden suddenly came into focus and I felt that I was looking at my life for the past five years. 

I had let my garden become overrun and neglected. I acquienced control to the whims of nature and choose not to be a participant but an onlooker that felt powerless. Oh sure occasionally I would pull some weeds and snip some herbs here and there but did barely little else. The more the garden ran out of control the more I saw going into it as a chore, work that had to be done and less of the enjoyment I had desired. I struggled to maintain it and felt a stranger in my own natural setting. For the last couple years in fact I avoided it and came to resent its unyeilding presence.

It took a few more days of looking and thinking, wondering and feeling before I decided to venture into the garden and together with nature create a mindful joyful space in which we both could heal and become reimagined.    

This blog will be my journal of that process.